Grief

I wish the pain you felt wasn’t real.

I wish you grabbed the hands that reached out.

I wish you knew you’d be missed.

I wish you could smile at the world

And believe it’s worth smiling at.

I hope you’re in a better place.

These are just some wishing I have for Mitch Isensee, the 15 year old who choose to end his life. I didn’t know him, but this has effected me as it has affected several. He was a good friend to several of my friends. My heart goes out to his family. My prayers are with them, and I hope they can stay strong together through this ordeal.

Hearing that a 15 year old committed suicide brought back several unwanted memories and what ifs. As most of you know, Tesha went through a very hard time 2 years ago. She was suffering from depression. Several times I was afraid for her life. Haylee and I did everything we could, and gradually she overcame all that was hurting her. Right now I’m worried about Josh. He is really hurting and I don’t know how to help him. This news brought tears of sorrow and hurt for those who were family and friends. It also brought tears of selfish joy that I didn’t have to go through the pain of losing a loved one.

I challenge everyone I know to focus on the good in life. With every horrible thought and action there is a positive outcome. If you spend time grieving the bad, you’ll miss the good. If you’re having a bad day, find at least one good thing that happened that day. I guarantee there is at least one, if you missed it, that’s the question.

Brain Storms

Brain Storm: a collection of High Point’s poems. In book form? We have some very talented writers, and it would be cool to showcase that.

Advised Brian Storm: somehow sharing knowledge and constructive criticism with other writers. It would be cool if we would be able to get a writer to lead a workshop or seminar, someone to help teach different forms and tips.

I have a new poem, which I think people will like, I’ve been working on it for quite some time, it’s short but sweet. I’ll try to remember to bring it in tomorrow.

Rambles...

Don’t think I’m not writing… because I am. It’s just my writings are at home, and I’m not sure if I want to share them.

The past few days have been kind of tough. I’ve been missing Haylee and Tesha horribly. I found out some pretty shocking and depressing news Monday. (And no I am not pregnant, on drugs, or anything else that is probably floating around your head :)) And I just haven’t been feeling the best recently.

I’ve been working overtime on schoolwork. Kathryn Clarenbach project is taking up much of my time. And that’s okay. I love work like this. Talking to people I normally wouldn’t be contacting. History. Women’s Rights. Power. Astounding smarts. And creating something beautiful with the information I find.

You should really check out this video, it’s really quite inspiring. And beautiful. And I’m loving the song!


I’m craving a hike. Maybe I’ll get my mom to drop me off somewhere…

I’m not getting a lot of reading time recently. :( Well, I do stay up late and read… Whoops. I just finished Paper Quake by: Kathryn Reiss. It’s one of those with two stories from two time periods running parallel to each other and then come together.

Jason’s going to school! I am so excited for him, and happy. It’s through a grant from CouleeCap, but hey, that’s okay. It’s schooling. He’s excited for it, but nervous as well. He doesn’t know what he wants to do, and I’m sensing he’s a little scared of picking a profession and hating it. But he’ll do fine, I’m sure of it.

I’m planning on becoming a foreign exchange student my Junior/Senior year. It would be through the Rotary Club most likely. I can’t wait!

I have softball starting soon. I’m honestly not really looking forward to it. I have hardly practiced. The good thing is that Tesha’s doing it this year. Haylee isn’t though.

Well I really just wanted to write random things as they float through my head and I think I managed that. So that’s really all I have to say.